Road trip

I used to go on road trips a lot. They were for only a few hours. So today I went to see a small town to check up the beach hoping it woukd be nicer than Galveston. IDK what do you think?

Panhandelers...what's your stance?

Whag do you guys think about the people who stand out in the street asking for money? Lately I noticed more and more of them. Ok so I used to give them money I thought ok one dollar isn't much, right? But then multiple things happened. Like there is this one on a very popular street corner that like to "clean" people's windshields. I told him no once and he used the squggie to him my back window of my car. WTF? Then I heard about this one guy that panhandles but he goes home to a mantion. I think one of my teachers to me that...Moreover my coworker says his dad went to give mcdonalds to one and the panhandeler threw the food back at him because he wanted money instead. I mean now I just don't know if giving them my hard earned money is what I need to be doing...I mean who is to say they are not using it get high or to buy alcohol anyways? I don't give anyone anymore but now I also think about why are they standing on the street corner? Its more than 100 degrees outside and wouldn't it be easier to get a job? IDK...what do you guys think, I'm I being a hard ass or not?

write about a ship that can take you to a place far from where you are now...

I would love to be going on a cruise...the best cruise I ever took was on the Carnival Magic. It was so much fin! All the people I sat with at dinner were amazing. I meet people at the bar and all over the ship really they were all amazing. I loved the water... on the ship. Sometimes you can get on a ship and all the water from the fountains can taste funny but the water from that ship I loved. This lady from my table gave me an excursion for free because she already had one fore that day. I meet a really handsome dude. I loved that ship! It has a small water park on it and a mini golf course and I believe it's called a sky course which I did get on. That ship was really Magical...I wish I was on it now...talking me to Mexico or Honduras like it did years ago...

Book review Sacred contracts by Caroline Myss

So I read this book and its really intresting. It talks about how in our life we have contracts with people. She says that before we were born we made contracts with souls for events in our life. She talks about how sometimes in our life we have things that happen to us and at the time we think thats its a horrible thing. She says but later we find out that that event was actually the best thing that could have happned. I found out that to be true for me when I got shot. It was HORRIBLE. But now looking back if I had not hone through it I wouldn't be as independent as I am today. So in the end GOD made it right. That was my mistake not giving up my purse because I got so angry, but GOD made it right. I can imagine all the things Mrs. Myss is saying but Im not sure if I belive everything she says in the book. Its intresting to listen to but at one piont I was thought to myself how high do you have to be to come up with all these theories? So Im gonna give it a 3 out of 5 stars.

"Post five things that make you laugh out loud"

Things my dogs do...like when Mclovin blows air out his snout cause he doesn't want to take a bath or do what my and I want him to do.
Things I have said to people. I'm really honest and sometimes the way I say things are funny. Like one time I told someone "It means exactly what it sounds like, its self explanatory. You like to waist my time don't you." ... looking back that was mean but I'm telling you he deserved it...that's why I thought it was funny.
Things that have happened to me are funny, like emabrassing moments...like the time I was so drunk I danced on a pole at tge club...fuck that wasn't cool at all but it happened and I can't change that I can only laugh about it.
Sometimes I remember scenes in movies and it makes me laugh like a scene from raod trip the movie when that skinny guy goes to eat at the pancake house and he sends the pancakes back then the cook puts the pancakes in his underwear and they take them back to him. When he puts them in his mouth and he says these are good. That always makes me laugh.
When I remember stuff people ask me like when someone asked me "Can I apply for a credit card to pay my overdraft at my bank? " I don't know how I didn't bust out laughing right there and then...

Aww...hell

Ok so I will admit something...I don't like to watch the news. I feel it only shows the bad things and not enough good things. That doesn't mean I don't know whats going on I just know about it in a different way. I do flipboard. Anyways this morning I browsing it like I do most mornings. An article in the washinton post said that a woman was a this wildlife nature park where there are tigers and such. I saw her get out of the car, come around it and talk the other person on the other side of the car while she was doing that Im not sure if she saw but this tiger cam up and grabbed, dragged susequently taking her from reach of the camera and another tiger killed her. All these questions in my mild like : why oh why would you get out of the car? Did you not see the tigers around? Did you think they were cute and cuddly? No, no... now she's gone. Damn...

"A letter to anyone"

I want you to know that I only hope that we get closer and closer. That I hope one day you say sorry for all the things you have done that were unfair. I hope one day we act like our relationship calls for. You were supposed to be my protector my example and even those formative years are gone I hope that in the future you begin to act more like what you are. In this year we have made advances in our relationship and I never thought we would ever make it here. If I would have know a dna test would have helped I would have asked for it sooner. But everything in due time, right?  I hope that we both help each other grow. I  need to work on forgiveness and you need to be more of a doer instead of a just a dreamer. I hope you help me with that and I hope I help you with being more grounded. I hope we get to a piont where we will be comfortable and proud in our roles, me as your daughter and you as my dad...

"Three lessons you want your children to learn from you"

I probably have more than three...My openess. That is the way that my family is super open. There really isn't much my family and I aren't able to talk about. If god ever blesses me with kids I want them to be able to talk to me about anything. I don't want to be thier friend I want to be thier parent but I still them to know they can ask me anything and know that Ill give them the best advice. Fair advise not just cause thier my kids I'm always gonna be on thier side. If they are wrong Im gonna say it and say how they can fix it. I want them to be able to say I was wrong and this is how Im gonna fix it.  I want them to be my drive for knowledge. Even though I have not finished my college degree doesn't mean I'm not smart. If there is anything I'm intrested it I learn about about it all I can until I find out what I'm looking for. I want my kids to learn that from me. To pursue what intrests them. My honestly and loyalty. The friends I have I have had for a long time. I want my kids to be able to keep thier friends. To be loyal and cherish thier friendships. For them to be honest and know whats right and wrong but most of all to be able to learn from thier mistakes. Thats what I what them to know.

"Post three celebrity crushes"

1.Chris Evans, omg that man is so hot!!!
2. Colin Farrell...esta como quiere...lol
3. The guy from jane the virgin, Justin Baldoni...

"Discuss your first love"

Really? Ok there isn't much to say. The first time we went out I was 17. I think he was really cute and he had a nice car. But he wanted something I wasn't gonna give. The second time we were just messing around and the last time I really fell in love with him. I was not repricated whether its was because he didn't really love me or whether it was because we weren't on the same page in life I will never know. But what I do know is that if it was meant to be it would have been any of the three times we tried. I know in my heart that I tried but I can't try for two people. You can't make someone love you and you can't make them respect you and be true if it's not their nature. I'm holding out for a man that loves me and if that never happends I'm have made up my mind I will still be happy. That's really it...

"Post 30 facts about youself"

1. I was shot with a gun when I was 24 years old and almost died.
2. I been working at the same place for 13 years.
3. I bought my house at 29.
4. I have two sisters on my dad's side but Im not sure how many siblings on my mom's side.
5. I was adopted by my grandma when I was 1 month old.
6. I've never been married.
7. I have no kids.
8. I have 5 dogs.
9. I only have one ovary.
10. I had a tumor one of my ovaries.
11. Im not religious but Im very spiritual.
12. I'm very new age.
13. If I'm interested in something I look it up until I'm satisfied with the answer.
14. I can get a little obsessed with stuff.
15. I know a little about almost everything.
16. I know a lot of people but consider very few people my friends.
17. Im very loyal.
18. I believe God talks to me.
19. My mom is my best friend, followed by Maria and Judy.
20.My best friend and I know each other since we were 9 years old.
21.I have lived on three coast of this country.
22. I love water, pools, rivers, and lakes.
23. I love to try new things, hobbies , places to eat or to travel to.
24. I love comedy, comedy shows or waching comedians.
25. My favorite color is blue, all types- some blue greens and blue that fade into purples.
26. Im super honest.
27. Swearing is like another language I'm fluent in.
28.Im not sure if I ever want to get married.
29. Im convinced Im gonna be rich someday.
30. Im more than half way through a writing challenge...yay!

"Post about you zodiac sign and whether or not it fits you"

I'm supposed to be Aquarius. Accourding to pintrest I give people the silent treatment becuase if I then I can be really mean. That's true unfortunately. I read something else that says we are over thinkers, OMG ! Yess! Not for nothing thats why I had to take up meditation. I was thinking so much I couldn't get any sleep...lol. I also read on a scale from 1 to 10 Aquarius people don't have a number they are satan...lol. This one pin say if an aquarius feels strongly about something or someone it becomes their addiction. Umm yeah, look at all the hobbies I have. The pencils thing was the most recent...@¥£* it is right! I liked the pin that says we don't  lie very well so we tell the truth all the time. Yep that's me! I can't keep lies straight so why even try? Tell the truth even if it hurts. It says aquarius people love to look at people's eyes, its their way of looking into their soul. Yes, I agree with that one too. At my job I do that a lot and sometimes I find people can't hold my eye sight, it drives me crazy. I feel I can't trust those people. Anyway, I guess I am a true aquarius. I'm cool with that.

"Something that I miss"

I'm not sure if I told you guys before but I think I have...I grew up with my brother Joe. Joe was a really good brother. He taught me a lot while I was growing up. Somethings good and somethings bad but all in all mostly good. He was the first person to introduce me to banna slits. He would make them for me. When it was the summer time he would take me to work with him and his boss would sit me down at a desk and give me paper and a pencil and I would draw all day long. Joe was very impulsive and he liked to drink  and smoke. These things were the bad but I didn't pick up smoking- drinking...well we all know I can knock a few down from time to time. I miss my brother. Don't think he is dead he just lives really far away. I talk to him a few times a week if he calls the house and I happen to pick up the phone. He lives in El Salvador because he got deported more than 10 years ago. He was a resident which means he had a green card and was living here legally but when you are a resident anything you do could back fire and they could take it way and you could be kicked out of the country. I can't really tell you what he did becauae my mom and I don't  really know why. I miss my brother...he taught me a lot of things like to play chess and a whole bunch of other things. One day I'm sure we will be close again.

"Bullet point your whole day"

●wake up
●eat breakfast
● hang out with my parents
●eat lunch
●take a shower
●watch tv
●eat dinner
●watch more tv
●go to sleep
In my defence today was Sunday and I was tired from Saturday so today was a very lazy day.

"Post your favorite movie you never get tired of watching"

I love the movie office space! I never thought I would say this but I hate my job almost as much as the prime character hates his job. The whole movie is so funny. The fact the guys he works with are funny. The one that has the same name as Michael Bolton! The two guys that go make the workers interview for thier own job...it's just hilarious! At work when stuff gets stuck in the copy machine I always think of how those three guys bet up the machine. I think about how happy taking a bat to my machine at work would make me feel...lol. its just hilarious! It always makes me laugh. Thats one of my favorite movies...

"What are you excited about?"

I was excited about opening an Etsy shop becuase I thought t hat could be a way to make extra income. Which I have yet to actally start making. Its been a month and still nothing. And so now Im excited about blogging everyday, hoping I can grow my followers on my blog and start making money that way. I really want to work from home at some piont so those are small steps towards my goals.

"Five blessings"

1. My mom , for all the reasons I have previously blogged about.
2. My health, I see people everyday that can't walk or can't do something. ..but I'm fortunate that God has me in good health.
3. My job. I know I complain about it all the time but really I'm fortunate to have a job that I'm able to pay all my bills and I'm able to travel.
4. My friends. The real friends I have, they have been with me for years and they are amazing!
5. The skills god gave me, I love to cook and color and write about my experiences in life.

Something I always think "what if "about

I'm not gonna lie there are a lot of things I think "what if" about...like what if my family would never have left our country, what if there wasn't a cival war? Where would I be ? Would I be married? Would I have kids ? Would I have gotten a degree? Would I still be living in El Salvador?  So many questions...so many possibilities...its like one question leads to another and its just pointless. Because I believe in God and I believe He has a plan, I also believe His plan is and always will be better than mine. Like I have written before...God directs my path. Sometimes there have been times where I thought that he had abandoned me because ugly things have happened to me ( like when I was shot). Yes, that was hell! I had many surgeries and many scars and it hurt like no other pain I have ever had BUT God didn't let me die. God let me live and go back to work and get a promotion...and I wouldnt be where I am if it weren't for what I went through. So yeah there are times that think what if?... but I don't linger on those thoughts too much... becuase it's just an unessesary rabit whole I don't need to dwell in. It's better to concentrate on my goals and try to do things to get me there. Let God continue to guide me in the right direction.

"Post some words of wisdom that speak to you"

Well first of all there are many many that ring true to me. But right now I can think of one that one of my college teachers taught me...she said make sure that when you leave the house you kiss and hug yhe person you love even if you are mad because you just never know. I know someone personally that she was mad at her dad for some stupid reason. She didn't want to speak to him and when there was a chance to and missed the opportunity to fix things. He died in an car accident and she always regreted talking to him a few daus before he passed. I always leave the house in the morning before I go to work by kissing and hugging my mom. Becuase no matter what disagreements we may have nothing will between us, and everything can be compramised. And if it can't we can always say we agree to disagree, right? Something I like as well is don't do any thing to someone you won't anyone to do to you. That's just common curtacy.

"Share something you struggle with"

I struggle with A LOT of stuff...lol. let me try to keep the list as short as possible.
1. Procrastination
2. Forgiveness
3. Romantic relationships
4. Sticking with one hobby
5.  Exercise
Thats all I remember right now ...isn't that a lot?...lol

" 10 songs I'm loving right now"

I will have to preface with since I got spotify a few months ago I don't listen to the radio as much anymore so the songs I'm listening to now are mostly old school.
10.) Snap yo fingers
9.) Cake by the ocean
8.) Perdoname
7.) When the funk drops
6.) Get your freak on
5.) Front back and side to side
4.) Freaks of the industry
3.) The humpy dance
2.) Ghetto d
1.) Mr. Big

"Five ways to win my heart"

1. Make me laugh
2. Be yourself, sincere, honest
3. Spend time with me (my love language is quality time, baby)
4. Listen
5. Be willing to try new things.

"List 5 plaves You want to visit"

1.) Paris , France
2.) Cairo , Egypt
3.) Sydney, Australia
4.) Rio DeJaneiro, Brazil
5.) Madrid, Spain

"Write about someone who inspires you"

Its might sound like a cliche but my mom inspires me. (Remember that my gransmother on my dad's side adopted me when I was one month old). Ok so when she was growing up they really didn't have much. She said my great grandpa once in a while would gift them 5 cents. She said they didn't wear shoes around the house. They only wore their shoes when they went to school. I say they meaning her and her two other siblings. My mom never finished high school much less college. She left home because she ran away to be with my grandpa at the age of 16, if I recall correctly. She had two kids and then found herself seperated with no skills. My grandpa took the oldest child from her and she was to take care of the other one ( my dad ) with practically no child support. I think she said he gave her like 30 colones a month. El salvador converted to dollars a long time ago but when they still had colones you needed 8 to make one dollar. Since my mom didn't have much education she managed to get jobs working as a maid.After a series of events she had another baby and she also meet someone who ended up being instrumental in our family's well being. As it turns out that she went from being a maid for this lady that had this motel to the owner. The lady told her that she wasn't making ends meet so she would sell her the business. My mom accepted. She had to go through a learning curve but she workerd harder than she ever had before. She learned to save and by the time I was born had done great things. She had six employees.  She had helped her family as in her sister with her kids. She had three houses. She put my oldest brother Henry and his wife through college. She was a pillar of the community. She even adopted a little girl someone left at her hotel. Her life reads like a soap opera. She is really an amazing person. But her strengths don't  end there. In her early forties she decided that since the cival war in El Salvador was too dangerous we had to move to the U.S. We move and start all over- no houses, no cars, no money, she doesn't even speak the language. But she knows how to save and she knows how to clean. As I grew up here in Houston I know we didn't  have much but I also know there were other people that had less than we did. I can't  say I had everything while I was growing up but maybe that was a good thing. Not having it all made me work for what I have today. I have a good job and I have a big house and I have my car and things I need. I been able to travel-one of my dreams was to go to Rome and I got to do that in 2006. My mom inspires me. Her life is testiment of what you can do if you work hard. She is amazing and that's the reason that it makes me happy to make her happy. I want her to be proud of me and know that I am who I am because of her advise, guidance and love. I'm so greatful that God gave me the mom he did but without her I don't know who or what I would be.

"List Three of your pet peeves"

1.) When someone asks me a question but when I try to answer, they cut me off. I absolutely hate that shit!!
2.) When I text someone and I don't get a responce.
3.) When people say they are gonna do something and they don't without a valid reason not to.

"Write something someone told me I never forgot"

Back in high school one of my favorite subjects was English. My 12th grade English teacher once made everyone do this which come to think of was really really sweet. So she made everyone write one word about everyone else on a peice of paper. So she went home collected everyone's words and the next day delivered this little paper with all these descriptive words for you. Of course she only wrote the good words down. I have always loved that. My paper was filled with shys and quiets but one word stood out, that word was pretty...I think that was so sweet of someone to say. I never found out who said it but I thought that was cool. I think I still have that peice of paper somewhere...

"10 things that make me happy"

1) Making my mom happy.
2) Being able to pay my bills, being able to put food on the table, and keep a roof over me and my mom's head.
3). On my days off doing nothing.
4). Traveling.
5). Listening to music.
6). Reading a really good book.
7). My doggies
8). Being able to do new things/ my hobbies
9). Giving good advise.
10). Hanging out with my friends.