So do you guys recall that I told y'all that this year I was really gonna try to find someone? I'm not sure if I told you but I defiantly told my friends about it when I was making my new years resolution. In any case I feel like God might be testing me... Ok I'm not going into details but I have two choices and one of them is super local I don't feel like they are totally on my level. I don't want to be mean but he doesn't have his stuff together. My other choice is more complicated is further away geographically. That guy has his shit together. Love the idea of being with someone like that... but there is set of issues there. So in any case I feel like God is saying so you wanted someone. And this is a test weather you have learned all the lessons I have tried to teach you so far or if you are still stupid as fuck as far as your love life is concerned. Well lets weighing all the options the local guy is an easy option, but in the long run I can foresee issue because he isn't responsible. So I'm going to try to do the opposite of what I would normally to in hopes it turns out better. I don't know how this will turn out or even it anything will happen. We shall see and I will report back later.
Thursday, February 1, 2018
So my little sister just turned 30 last weekend. We went to go celebrate her birthday over to NYC cause she lives there. It was so much fun. I think I remember writing in my bucket list that I wanted to live there for a year...umm I don't know if that will happen. Maybe when I wrote that I had forgot how hectic it is. I mean I like it but to live there for a year...IDK. But aren't these pictures really pretty? I took the one of the Statute of Liberty on the Staten Island ferry. The other one is from the 86th floor of the Empire state building. From way up there people look like little ants. The sky is beautiful at sunset. You look out there and you feel so small. Anyways I'm happy I'm home.
Tuesday, January 16, 2018
I believe that God talks to us. Sometimes it's directly and sometime he uses other people. It's up to us to choose to listen. So lately I been struggling or more like in limbo about something. Not knowing what to do about it, if anything. In any case I spoke to one of my customers. She is a single woman and she says she is thinking of moving away to another country for retirement. She lives with friends here but she says when she gets old she doesn't want to be a burden to them. Julia never got married or had any kids. Fear was the reason. She said she was always thinking ahead and for fear or being hurt she never got married. She told me that in life you have to be more adventurous. Do things you want to do and eat things you want to eat and make memories with people because in the end you don't take things with you when you die. I could not agree more. I love how when I think God isn't around or he had better things to do than so solve my stupid problems he comes through, all you have to do is listen. He is around and sees everything. Open your eyes and ears, he does send you answers it's up to you to pay attention.
Wednesday, January 10, 2018
So recently I been giving country music a try and I stumbled upon this song by Kane Brown. It's a beautiful song about a guy that is laying in bed with his girlfriend. He says he doesn't know how heaven could be better than that. Not only do I agree, it made me think of how lucky and great full I should be. Yes it made me think of when that happened to me and even though I'm not with him anymore I get what he means. It made me think of other times where I am in so much happiness I can't even explain it. It also made me think of when I'm surrounded by my friends at game night. There is so much noise but the good kind. The kind that makes you know everyone is involved and present. I'm in heaven when my mom is happy she is on vacation with me to a place she has never been. So there are moments when heaven is on earth and in this time. The trick is to catch it while it's happening, to record it in our minds so that we can remember it when things are that way. I want to live my life like that, collecting memories so that when I'm old I'll look back and not regret anything. What a beautiful song!!
Monday, December 25, 2017
So yesterday I was at my one of my best friend's house. We celebrated Christmas with the her family and after we opened gifts we played games. Yes, I said games. We played family feud I bought at Five Below. It was amazing and so much fun! Today I was coming back from spending time with my sisters and I was like thinking...wow! I'm so blessed to know this group of people. They are so amazing, they love me for the person that I am and don't judge me. I can be me around them. The silly person who I am. I'm so happy God put them in my life. They are my family and we have an unbreakable bond. We have been friends for more than 25 years and it just keeps getting better. Some people never have long term friend and I have a whole family worth. Pleased I have a good job which I complain about but at least I have a job. I helps me pay my house and put food on the table and lets me take my mom on vacations too! All in all God is good to me and my family. What did I learn this year? I learned that not everyone in your life will be happy for you. That there are people that disguise themselves as friends but aren't. Which I did know before but it's seems like I might have needed a refresher. I learned to mind map and that has been really great for me. It's helps me see the loops in my thinking and lets me make list so I can accomplish things. I'm looking forward to next year. I want to be closer to my sisters and my nephews. I need to spend more time with them. I also need to take my Ebay thing more serious. I need to stop being lazy with it. Go back to school, even if it is one class to start. But this year was about learning to care and appreciate what I have. Sometimes we complaint but we have to learn to appreciate what we have. There are so many people in this world that don't have a place to live or even food to eat. If we have that we are already ahead. I have no doubt in my mind that God has a plan for me next year. So even though I don't know what it is I'm happy to trust in Him that he knows what's best for me.
Monday, December 4, 2017
I know I'm always complaining about this and that but last week I had NOTHING to complain about. I was in the Bahamas with my mom! It was awesome. Here are some pix so you can see... I know it was a cruise but who doesn't love cruises? I don't think I have ever meet someone that has gone on a cruise and did not like it. Anyways I also have to thank God that he let me have the ability to take my mom on this cruise and spend some much needed quality time with her. Yeah we fight and nag on each other but really she is my best friend in the whole wide world and always has been. I'm just sad that it took my so long to realize she has always been on my side and by my side even when I did not think she had my best interest at heart. I love her and I thank God I still have her here with me and I hope that God lets me show her how much she means to me.
Tuesday, November 7, 2017
Ok so today I was wondering about this one guy that bought a lot of shirts from me a few months ago. Anyways I looked up his account and of course what I thought was happening is happening. So he bought my shirt so he could sell them him self. So I don't know how to feel about that...I guess it's my fault that I priced my stuff too cheap to where he saw he could take advantage of that. But then I think well I'm still glad I had a good day from him. So he bought like 17 shirts from me for over 200 and he's selling them for twice he paid from me. I can't be mad at him it's my fault. Well because of that I now have changed all my listings to buy it now and no more haggling if they want it they will pay the price I list on there. There is this other guy that sells ties and he does the same thing. I know about this other guy that sell shoes...same thing. So I changed all my fixed listing to buy it nows. I hope that helps me out. I will keep an eye out to see if that helps my sells. Also I'm going on a cruise with my mom again. This time we are going to the Bahamas. Why does that always make me want to sing kokomo by the beach boys? I love that song, dude! I'm so happy that God is going to let me take my mom on a nice long vacation. She deserves it. Back to the ebay thing, can you believe that guy even stole one of my pix to put in his ad? Maybe that's what I'm most mad about. IDK. Or maybe I'm mad because I work so hard to put up nice pix and price my stuff to sell and I saw his ads and they look like shit but people at buying it a twice the price with no effort for him. Yeah, that is it. Well I guess ounce again it's my fault because I have not advertised on my YT channel and taken advantage of the people I have access to... I don't know. Me watching all these YT people makes me want to get back on YT and document all these shenanigans since I became a re-seller. Well shall see...