2015 Year end summary

So after every year I always try to look back at what I learned through the year and make a concsous decision to learn from the past. This year it was as if had failed theses classes in college and God wanted to reteach them to me. The fact that you cannot make someone do something, even if it makes sence. The fact that life is precious. The fact that time never stays still. But the most important thing I learned this year is that no matter what your family is always your family, most of them want to get along with you. They will make an effort if you take that first step. I read this book the five love languages...it made me do a lot of soul searching and ask myself questions that I might not have asked myself. Sort of like a self analysis...I got to the bottom of emotional pain I had and Im working on forgiveness, and mindfulness. God has given me a direction to follow and Im moving towards it. Pretty much even though nothing really happened as far as relationship wise...maybe I dodge a bullet, like my friend Hien says. 2015 was an amazing year, one of the learning years. Im glad Im through it. But most of all Im glad God let me see what Im supposed to be doing. I think 2016 will be amazing for work and travel. Im super happy about it, looking forward to what comes next.

Hello...grandaddy's brew

Much needed...lol

Menu Monday

Wings and carrots and home made butter milk ranch...umm

TBT

My thirtyth BDay party...lol

Wordless Wednesdays

Tunes Tuesday: Hotel california By The Eagels

This song always reminds me of my brother, Joe. He was super young when he came to this country for the first time so this is the kind of music he grewup listening to. So naturally as he would here that type of music through the house I came to love it as well  even thoough I do not think I was born when this song came out.

Menu Mondays : Spare ribs

BBQ Pork spare ribs with beans and rice with a green salsa verde.

Funny Friday

So a while back we went to Target to look for some shorts for her brother. I'm fully engrossed at the task at hand and I look up to see this...lol

Throw Back Thrusdays

This was back in day when I used to do highlights and didn't mind spending time on my hair in the mornings...lol.

Wordless Wednesdays

Tunes Tuesday: Mo money mo problems by The Notorious B.I.G.

 

 

Everytime I hear this song it reminds me of high school. Well more spasifcally this guy I meet in high school. He will always be special to me. I will always wish him well and when ever he comes to mind I will always pray good things for him. If you guys have been reading my blog for a while you should know that I believe things happen for a reason. So even though I do not know why he was a part of my life right now, trust that one day I will find out. Eithier way everytime I hear that song it puts a smile on my face.

Menu Monday: Kung pao chicken

Tonight's dinner...it's alright...I def have to practice this more...

A turkey cake...

Music association: Journey "Don't stop believing"

 

 

Everyone has associations with songs. I'm not quite sure if I was born when this song came out but I love it. When I really heard the lyrics it was a part of the soundtrack to a really good movie, View from the top with Gwenith Paltro. I love that movie!  She comes from a small town and she doesn't know what to do after this guy breaks up with her. She reads this book and gets inspired to be a flight attendant, meets her idol and fofills her dreams. Love the song and the association!

Priorities

You guys know I love to read...I picked up another book. I LOVE books that make me think about why I do the things I do. Sometimes even I wonder why I do some things. Like why did I quit Youtube? The are many reasons but primaraly becuase I wasn't seeing any results. Then I was thinking I needed to be a promise keeper. How can I want other people to be promise keepers but yet I can't do what I ask of other people to do? So one of these days I gotta make the video of gel nails and keep my promise of giving away a gel starter kit. I already bought the kit but I want to include something else and I still have to order it. Anyways soon you will see me getting my second wind. I already cleaned the extra closet in my master. I'm excited!

Turtles...

At the botanical garden ....

Thanksgiving

So a long time ago I had gone to my step mom Thanksgiving dinner without my mom. She told me not to go but I went anyways. When I mean step mom I mean the lady that married my dad but didn't stay married to him. Keep in mind we had not had the DNA test back then so obviously it wasn't confirmed I was his daughter yet. There were a lot of people there at her house. It came time to talk and she tried to introduce everyone there at the table. As she introduced me she stuttered a little like she was imberassed to say Xiomara the Aunt or Xiomara the half sister so she said "Xiomara she's part of the family". Just seeing how the words came out of her mouth and the fact that I didn't even get a title was hurtful. My mom tells me that in the past there have been more times she has said ungly things about me but I had never heard them. That time I was there. That day I had vowed never to go to her house again...a promise I have broken a few times since then. Forgiveness is powerful. I can say that I want to be close to my family. I want them to know I love them. I want to forgive them becuase I'm sure in my life there have been times that I've done and said stupid things. But in the end there is only one family and if I have anything it's time so I can chip away at the walls they have built. So I'm gonna kill them with kindness even if it hurts...lol. They will come around. God willing...

Salvadorian breakfast

Eggs, sweet fried plantains,beans and rice salvadorian cheese and sour cream...umm. Lets start the day off right!!

My sissy and my nephew Phoenix

I love apples...lol

I was watching this show in which this guy was trying all these different types of beers...so this happend...

Wtf?

So I been going to walk at the park everyday this week and one of these days I saw this. Why does this make me think of humpy dumpy? Yes this duck is on the fence ....lol.

Steak night

Yes I made it and it amazing!!!

 

New shoes...

I bought some new shoes from 6pm.com... ( no Im not getting sponsored). They were such a good deal all three pairs for around $60 bucks. It seens as though I have new dancing shoes...lol.

 

Lunch time!!

These tacos are the bomb!!! Thank you Jesus!

Fears...

So I have been rereading this book I did a review on, Become who you were born to be : we all have a gift,  have you discovered yours? By Brian Souza. The point is that there is an interesting fact in it...Mr. Souza says that as babies we only have two fears...1. The fear of falling and 2. The fear of load noises. So along the way at 35 I have learned all these fears ...f***. Who taught me all this s***?? I think I know where the fear of worms came from. When I was in elementary school this girl put a catapillar in my sweater. I think that's where that fear came from. If I start really thinking about it I might be able to trace most of them to things that happened to me when I was young...Anyway I thought that was intresting so I wanted to share it.

Cigarettes

WTF? So my mom came back from  El Salvador today. Thank you Jesus! Anyways my brother sent back some cigarettes for my brothers here in Houston. Look at the packaging!! I wonder if this actually deters people from smoking? I know it makes me not even want to touch them...

The signs

Why is it that I always have to be the wierd one? Damn it. So one day this month I was talking to God and I promised him something. Basically that I would tell someone something if they contacted me. So it happened by lets call it a mistake...so I wrestled with going through with it. Then today I picked up a book and I opened it up to a random page and it said keep your promises to Him. So now in the eyes of this person I look like a nut job. Lol but at least I did what I said I was gonna do, right? Im gonna stop wrting cuase Im probably not making any sence to you either...

Cooking...

Mrs.Urban

So I have been thinking a lot about my life ( I do that everytime I read a good book). This time I reread a book I read two years ago. The book is called become who you were born to be by Brian Suza. Anyways that book has so many amazing stories in it about real people. There was this story in it about a teacher that loved her kids so much that even though the lived in a bad neighborhood a lot of them became to overcome their circumstances. So it made me think about my life and my teachers. I thought about how Mr. Hoy was an amazing science teacher, how I loved Mr. Hamid because of his charisma, but then I thought about Mrs. Urban. I was SO lucky to have been in her classes in middle school. I took home economics with her. She taught me how to cook eggs. She taught me how to follow a recipe. It's funny because the year I moved to high school she also moved to my same high school. I ended up taking sewing and more home economics with her. When I really think about it she was the one who gave me the love for all the hobbies I have. She was a great teacher. I hope that the universe one day is able to give amazing things. I would tell her myself except she blocked me on Facebook...lol. she probably doesn't remember me, it's been more than 15 years. But I'll keep praying she wins the lottlo or something.

Calm down its not what you think...lol

Non alcoholic drink called ensalada de fruta from this salvadorian place called La Union...really good interesting drink. I think the base is cashew flavor and then they cut up apples and have a few tejocotes in there. Anyways I was craving pupusas, and they do them amazing here...that's whats up for dinner.

Dessert...

I watched a lot of videos to before I made this. I have never had it at a restaurant before so I still don't have anything to compare it to...I made a rasberry/ strawberry puree for the top. I did like it although I'm not sure how it compares to others.

Sin and get saved within 30 feet...lol

This was funny so I couldn't help but to post it.

Its been one of those days...

We specialize in Chinese food....lol...ok

Sam Hunt - Make you miss me

 

Yes, I'm going to make you miss me...

Relaxing

#colorfy #painteditmyself #coloringbook #cute #beautiful #love

Gordita

My baby girl...she's so calm and so intelligent, not to mention obidient. She likes to lay with me and just chill. She's an amazing dog.

35 year mystery solved

So last Monday I got the results from the DNA test my dad and I took. I don't want to make it a long story but basically when I was one month old I was adopted by my dad's mom. My dad denied me for a really long time. He didn't treat me like a daughter, he's done and said really hurtful things over the years... but now its official  I am his daughter. I don't really know how to feel. I know I need to forgive him. Oh and I havent told him...only becuase I don't speak to him unless I have to. The only reason we took the test was becuase my grams wanted to know for sure. I'm happy I'm related to the person who adopted me but it really doesn't change much I still love her the same. Maybe it hasn't sunk in yet...Idk. Usually I have more of lesson I learn from things like this but I have admit this time I can't put the words to my feelings yet...so we will see...

Mojitos anyone?

Hien made me do it

Never had a Guinness...but Hien got me a shot...lol

Trapped!

Oh hell no! It rained so hard A LOT of Houston was not ready for this...I certainly wasn't ready to be trapped...

Three of my blessings

So this weekend I hung out with my friends and it was great. I'm reading this book called The Five Love Langauges and its opening my eyes to a lot of things. So I made them take thd test so I could find out what thier love languages are. It turns out they are quality time (like me). When I'm done with the book I'll do a full review but so far Im finding out a lot about myself. In any case my mom also hung out with us. We went out to eat one day and we went to the mall the yesterday. While I was at the mall I went to the Furla store and made really big purchse that was absolutly not necessary but I did it cause its been years since I bought me a nice purse. Anyways I'm happy I got to hang out with them, they are hilarious. God has blesses me in many ways and I know they are blessing in my life. Thank you God!

Crawfish night!!

Wordless Wednesday

Tunes Tuesday : Lauren Daigle- Trust in you

When you don't move the mountains I'm needing you to move

when you don't part the waters I wish I could walk through

when you don't give the answers as I cry to you

I will trust, I will trust, I will trust in you

Much needed

Romantic dinner (alone)

So this week I've been on vacation and I decided to take a road trip. So I have lived in TX most of my life and have never been to south padre island. I booked the hotel (which was amazing for the price bwt). It took me 7 hours to drive here from Houston only becuase I had to stop at a lot of gas stations to pee. I drink a lot of water...anyways. I thought the water was going to be more clear than it was. It wasnt but a native told me since it was choppy water it looked dirty but she said normally its blue green. I took all day on wednesday to sit by the water and just relaxed. I got all red. But I loved it. Just thinking about everything thats going on in my life. You know just trying to make sense of it all. I didn't really get any resolve to it but I know everything is in God's hands and he's writing my story. I have to be grateful for what I do have and in most people's eyes I have a lot.

Bedmate

This little dog always tires to sleep in my bed...

Tunes Tuesday

 

 

 

 

I know your scared,

Oh I can feel it.

It's in the air, I know you feel that too.

But take a chance on me, you won't regret it, no

One more no and I'll believe you

I'll walk away and I will leave you be

And that's the last time you'll say no, say no to me,

It won't take me long to find another lover,

but I want you

I can't spend another minute getting over loving you

If you don't ever say yeah

Let me hear you say yeah

wanna hear you say yeah

cause my heart is open

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

About a year ago

Life's little wonders...

Statistics

So I have a subscription to Time Magazine and a few weeks ago while thubming through it I came across a statistic. It said that 27% of Americans have some type of mental illness. 27%!! If it were any other week I wouldn't have belived it but it turned out to be a particularly crazy week. So now I know out ten people I talk to about three of them are....umm not all there for lack of a better phrase... :/

For you

 

I want that red velvet
I want that sugar sweet
Don't let nobody touch it
Unless thats somebody's me
I gotta me a man
There ain't no other way
Cause your hotter than the southern  california bay
I don't wanna play no games
Dont gotta be afraid
Dont give me all that shy shit
No makeup
Thats my
Sugar!

Wordless Wednesday

Wordless Wednesday

11. Go horseback riding, Check (2/24/2015)

So a while back I posted a list of things I wanted to do before I died...this was number 11. I just came back from a 7 day cruise in which I horsback rode. I can't say I would do it again if I had the chance but what I can say is that I'm glad I did it. I bought a two part excursion. The first part was just riding the horse in the woods. The second part was to ride the horse in the ocean. I almost didn't do the swim part but I'm glad I talked to some lady that was part of the guide team. She convinced me to do it and so I did. I know I would have regreted not to when I got home. I paid for something I might as well complete it, right? Like I said -even though I don't think I would not did it again I'm glad I did it. I meet a some really nice people. Here are some photos...btw Jamaica was very beautiful!! I can only thank God for letting me experience this. Oh and if in the picture with horse it looks like I'm scared, that's cuase I am!!! ...lol.

That's Dwane the tour guide and I, he's probably the reason why that horse didn't buck me off!!! He was amazing, l think he could tell I was scared. So he kept close by just in case my horse was scaring me. I was so happy to get that off my list...

The hourse' name was firefox, btw.

Funny Fridays: McLovin

Mommy is going on vacation for seven days!!

Funny Fridays: Ashton Kutcher Diaz and her hat

Found it on sale...lol