Tuesday, October 23, 2018

16 years and Counting on God To Catch Me...

So since I was 22 I been at this here job in banking. Last week on Thursday I made the sporadic decision that I'm not sure if I will live to regret. I put in my two week notice with no new job lined up. The truth is that I have been unhappy for years and I was going to be there unhappy until something broke. My spirt or my body. Another truth is that I fear that my body might be. So I need time to recuperate.  I need time to be with God and to talk to Him so He can guide me to where I have to be. I know that I was supposed to be there for a season of my life because I had a lot of favor with God being there. But I feel burned out, like I have given it all I have and there cant squeeze any more out of me because I just can't take it anymore. I'm sad about it a little because there was a time that I thought that I was going to retire from that place. That was years ago but I'm excited about the brand new world that is opening up. The time I'm going to be spending with my mom. The time I will be doing the things I want to do. Like traveling and enjoying life before I get back to work or go back to school. Honestly I don't remember being so happy. I know that whatever God tells me to do I will rock at it. I'm a fast learner and I can do anything if I put my mind to it. And I if for whatever reason I'm doing the wrong thing than I embrace it because this time I'm gonna have with my mom is going to be worth it. As far as money I'm gonna continue to do my Ebay stuff and that should be enough to get by. So I should be fine no problem. I feel good about it and I'm happy everday cus now it's like I'm counting down to it. The day I walk out and then I'm free...OMG! It's been a long time coming. I'm counting on God that He will catch me...