Tuesday, January 8, 2019

2018 Year Summary...

So it's time again so remember that good, the bad and the ugly about 2018. What was this year all about Gladis Xiomara? Well, let's see what exactly happened? So I learned about forgiveness, about how it feels to swallow your pride and ask for forgiveness. I learned to let go of people. I learned to let people in your life to make new friends. I learned to trust God in health and career. I learned a lot in 2018. So 2018 was about unconditional love. I think now I'm ready to give and receive it. I learned to love myself and trust that God has a plan and His plan is always better than mine. Ok, so I was dating someone that helped me understand things about myself that I might not have known otherwise. I had a lot of pride before. So let's say that I did someone that was kind of childish and later I would be like Yeah I shouldn't have done that. I wouldn't apologize I would wait till the other person would bring it up and not say sorry when I should have said it right when I realized I was wrong. Well, I learned to apologize. Also, I learned to say I'm angry about this issue right away instead of holding the issues in and exploding about it later. I'm becoming an adult! I'm even beginning to forgive my Dad! OMG, I never thought I would say that. I let hope go after 20 years. I threw away something I had been holding on to for 20 years! I also got so angry at work that I let that job go as well! I had been there for 16 years and I had to walk away because I didn't love it anymore. I was not being challenged enough and I was so unhappy. I would wake up during the night and I would think, I only have 3 more hours to be here and then I got to go back there...**** me! Your job should not be like that. You should enjoy it and have fun there. So I gave my two-week notice and have not looked back. I work on my eBay from home now and am happy every day to be at home with my mom and fur babies. I'm thinking to go to nail tech school I went yesterday to look at another school and we shall see how that goes. I mean it's not working for a huge bank and the status that brings you but whatever if I'm gonna be happy to go to work every day making people's nail look good. I'll take it. It should only take like 4 month to do if I go full time so like I said we shall see. Also, I keep learning the same stuff over and over again. This year I learned again that in a relationship if it's a family relationship or a love relationship, you can only try for yourself. The other person HAS to at least come half way. If they don't come halfway you can NOT force any them. They don't want to do for you, care for you, spend time with you, their actions show you right there how they feel. Why is it so hard to make time for people? Because there is no feeling there which is hard to take as the person that wants to get time from them but all I can do is keep moving forward, learn the lesson and keep moving forward. Those are the lesson I learned in 2018. They are amazing lessons and I hope God keeps blessing me because I'm moving towards Him. What about you? What lessons did you learn in 2018?

- Gladis Xiomara