Thanksgiving

So a long time ago I had gone to my step mom Thanksgiving dinner without my mom. She told me not to go but I went anyways. When I mean step mom I mean the lady that married my dad but didn't stay married to him. Keep in mind we had not had the DNA test back then so obviously it wasn't confirmed I was his daughter yet. There were a lot of people there at her house. It came time to talk and she tried to introduce everyone there at the table. As she introduced me she stuttered a little like she was imberassed to say Xiomara the Aunt or Xiomara the half sister so she said "Xiomara she's part of the family". Just seeing how the words came out of her mouth and the fact that I didn't even get a title was hurtful. My mom tells me that in the past there have been more times she has said ungly things about me but I had never heard them. That time I was there. That day I had vowed never to go to her house again...a promise I have broken a few times since then. Forgiveness is powerful. I can say that I want to be close to my family. I want them to know I love them. I want to forgive them becuase I'm sure in my life there have been times that I've done and said stupid things. But in the end there is only one family and if I have anything it's time so I can chip away at the walls they have built. So I'm gonna kill them with kindness even if it hurts...lol. They will come around. God willing...

Salvadorian breakfast

Eggs, sweet fried plantains,beans and rice salvadorian cheese and sour cream...umm. Lets start the day off right!!

My sissy and my nephew Phoenix

I love apples...lol

I was watching this show in which this guy was trying all these different types of beers...so this happend...

Wtf?

So I been going to walk at the park everyday this week and one of these days I saw this. Why does this make me think of humpy dumpy? Yes this duck is on the fence ....lol.

Steak night

Yes I made it and it amazing!!!

 

New shoes...

I bought some new shoes from 6pm.com... ( no Im not getting sponsored). They were such a good deal all three pairs for around $60 bucks. It seens as though I have new dancing shoes...lol.

 

Lunch time!!

These tacos are the bomb!!! Thank you Jesus!

Fears...

So I have been rereading this book I did a review on, Become who you were born to be : we all have a gift,  have you discovered yours? By Brian Souza. The point is that there is an interesting fact in it...Mr. Souza says that as babies we only have two fears...1. The fear of falling and 2. The fear of load noises. So along the way at 35 I have learned all these fears ...f***. Who taught me all this s***?? I think I know where the fear of worms came from. When I was in elementary school this girl put a catapillar in my sweater. I think that's where that fear came from. If I start really thinking about it I might be able to trace most of them to things that happened to me when I was young...Anyway I thought that was intresting so I wanted to share it.

Cigarettes

WTF? So my mom came back from  El Salvador today. Thank you Jesus! Anyways my brother sent back some cigarettes for my brothers here in Houston. Look at the packaging!! I wonder if this actually deters people from smoking? I know it makes me not even want to touch them...