In my thoughts

I think about you all the time. There have been times that I would love to grab the phone and just call you so I can hear your voice on the other end of the line. To just move past this whole not talking phase. But then I think about all the stuff we have been through. Or more like the stuff we put each other through and I think it's for the best that we not be in each others life. Lately I have been watching this show, it's called Being Erica. She has a messed up life and when she ends up in the hospital, this shrink seeks her out. They have weird encounters that lead to her going back in time and her trying to make better decisions in her life. Her theory is that if she had made better decision in life it would be better. Even though it's made up I love it. I could describe it as kind of like Grey's Anatomy but with out all the medical mambo jumbo. It's free on Hulu to watch it. One night I feel asleep thinking about how would my life have been had I never meet you. Would my life be better or worse? I don't exactly remember what I dreamed but when I woke up I didn't like the feeling I got from my dream. You know something? I we don't talk but I hope one day you see this and get to read it. Back when you broke up with me I prayed to God to tell me why you broke up with me and He answered. He said it was because of what you were doing and he gave me a picture of what was going on. I was discussed I have to admit. But that didn't make me love you any less because I was in denial. All in all I wouldn't change anything. I tried too much, even if you wanted to love me you could not. It's not in your nature.We can't fight nature. But all in all like I said I wouldn't change anything. Because we broke up I gave my life to the Lord. Even though I would not say that I have been perfect from then on but it's made me closer to God. All I know that you will never be happy until you accept who you are in front of everyone and yourself most of all. Think about it. I will always love you.

Following my calling

You always here in the movies and from people that its the right thing to do to follow your dreams, right? I know growing up that's all I heard. But you know what an awful feeling? For me was when I was grown up and still not knowing what to do or what to move towards. Yes, I have a good job but I stumbled in to it when I was 22. And I have been there ever since but going through the motions isn't good enough for me anymore. I even stumbled on to makeup back in the fall of 2007. I remember going on youtube to look for an tutorial on smokey eye and that started the obsession. Damn, but what an obsession it has become. From then I have taken a few classes on regular make up and one on airbrush makeup and every time I make someone up and they love the way they look it brings me happiness nothing else on earth has ever given me. Similar but not equal to the satisfaction I get at work when I teach someone how to balance their check book ,understand something they didn't know about or the tricks to saving money. Since this new craving from knowledge in this subject I have become pretty frustrated in trying to find a school here in Houston that teaches makeup (we do have beauty school that deal with mostly hair) to no avail. We are pretty deprived of those kinds of schools I'm sad to say. But Thank God I found one in NYC. Well Brooklyn to be exact. And I'm headed there the second week of next month. Tickets are bought the class is paid off and I'm set to start this new journey of my life.I'm sad but then more excited that anything else. One day I dream of opening up my own business here in Houston that just deals with makeup. Maybe one day a school who know the possibilities are endless. Lately I have been really glad that I have God in my life guiding me to where I needed to be. It's like he is opening the doors to my happiness and all I had to do was stumble on to it. For my profession I read a lot of books on the subject of money. Once I read something that makes a lot of sence now. The books said that you should not look to find money, your propose is not to look for it because then it will escape you. You should look for whatever it is that you love to do,  something like find whatever it is that you would do for free all day everyday if you could and do that, then and only then you will attract money. Most of my 20s I loved teaching people about money and how it worked and I was fine with that. But the last lesson would always be money doesn't make you happy and sometimes I feel like I'm my own teacher. Because it doesn't. It's just went the long way. So I leave you with tonight that this feels right I have peace in my mind that I'm doing the right thing. Little by little I'm gonna do it because since I now know what it is that's what I'm going to be focusing on. Thank God He's with me!

Ana Before and after 10-26-2010

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After doing her eyes I was trying to see lipstick she would look good in she confessed that she herself would never try out a red. I had to go for red. Everyone needs a red lipstick in their life! She said she liked this one more than last time. What do you guys think?

Caro Before and After 10-26-2010

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Thanks to Caro for helping me with my portfolio! She is really great to work with especially since she loves the camera and the camera loves her!

Before and After: Ana A. 10/17/2010

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 Special Thanks to Ana for letting me do her makeover and letting me use her pics on my portfolio channel!!

Avon Haul Review (04/04/2010)

 

 Yes there are some iteams that are not pictured here. (2- the foot works exfoloating soap and the shower gel. I'll explain later)

1.) Mark mist opportunity : This stuff is a really good product in my opinion. It does what all the mac fix plus does. I personally have the mac fix plus and reading a little bit about it supposedly it has all this stuff really good for your face but I didn't tell a substantial difference between them, to be honest. The only thing is the smell (it's not a horrible smell- just different)of them is a bit different but really that only last a couple of seconds anyways so for the money I think you get twice as much for half the price so I prefer this one. I have repurchased and will continue to.

2.)Avon eyeshadow trio (silverling and plum): I have to be honest, I have only used this once and I have yet to use the silverling one. The color I used was in the plum trio and it was the darkest purple in the trio. I used it as a base and I might have used to much and it creased. So if you were to buy this I would put a base under it like mac painterly paint put or UDPP before and then use this but just a SMALL about so it would not crease. Similar to how you use NYX jumbo pencils. I would not repurchase this because of the consistency (plus I already have bases that do way better than this).

3.)Anew wrinkle zone line smoothing duo: I tried to like this product, I really did.But unfortunately I didn't like it for the purpose in which it was intended. It's supposed to be a concealer for your under eye area. My first problem with it is that it doesn't have enough pigmentation to cover my under eye circles. The the second thing is that when I would put the bottom layer on which it the power it would end up making that area look really really dry. The consistency of this concealer is like the Avon magix face perfecter but thicker than that so I find that if I put it on my cheeks it does do a great job of smoothing out the look of my pores. So I guess it still wasn't money wasted. I guess you could use the powder at the bottom for your face overall if you really wanted to but they really don't even have that many color options. I would not repurchase this.

4.)Sterling silver hammered bypass ring: I love this ring! I have received a few complements on it. The style it pretty unique and I don't see these kinds of rings ofter. I definitely will keep buying silver rings from Avon.

5.)Advanced Techniques moisture sleek: I bought this product hoping that it would be similar to bio silk just because I didn't want to keep buying bio silk (I think its too pricey). I think your should take my opinion on this product like you would with a grain of salt just because of my type of hair. I have short easy to manage hair and on top of that it is pretty fine and thin. So for me, I like it but it would definitely going to depend on what type of hair you have if you liked it or not. I would repurchase because even thought it may not be exactly like bio silk it does do what I wanted it to do which was help my fly aways and make it look shiner. I would repurchase.

6.)Advanced Techniques shine caplets: I did not try these I gave some caplets to my friend EV and she tried them out. She liked them and when I asked her if she would repurchase she said Yes.

7.)Foot Works Exfoliating Bar Soap: (not shown in pic, it was in my moms bathroom)I had my mom help me with this one. She say she liked it but that it dried out her feet. So she found her self needing to put on lotion right after she used it. But then again isn't that what we all should do? She said she would not repurchase.

8.)Nail Experts Liquid Freeze Quick Dry Spray: I didn't feel like this product did anything to my nails. It's supposed to make them dry faster I didn't see a difference other than it left a weird only feeling on my hand and so No, I would not repurchase.

9.)Mark Powder Buff Natural Skin Foundation : I feel like this foundation would be better for people what have nicer skin I on the other hand don't. To me this makes me feel like it works better like a setting power after liquid foundation which it how I have been using it because that's how I can use it up. No, I don't think I would repurchase.

10.) MagiX Cashmere Finish Liquid Foundation SPF 10: Ok, this is another product that I feel it more for people with better skin that mine. I feel the coverage is light a bit more than a tinted moisturizer and not enough for me. Having said that I still like it but not as a foundation more like a primer for my face. I LOVE magix the original (white goes on clear) but this cover because of the tint so as primer I LOVE it as well. So Yes, I would repurchase. Oh and I also feel the need to tell you that if you are thinking of purchasing this product, please be warned there is a weird smell but that is normal for a magix product.

11.)True color (limited edition) Quad: I was surprise at the pigmentation of this quad. I really do like it. I have been wearing it for two of three days straight because I especially like the gray color in it. Since it was a limited edition I don't know if I could purchase it again but since they do have more colors I would defiantly give one of the other color quad a try.

12.) NATURALS Vanilla Shower Gel : (Not shown in the pic because it was in my mom bathroom also)I have to say one of the things I have to tell you about this shower gel, you can't complain that this shower gel doesn't smell like vanilla. OMG, I think that is the only thing that I would when I first used it. It's VERY strong. That is why I don't think that I would purchase that particular one but I would want to try out another kind of gel.( the smell was so strong that  I down grade it to my shaving gel)

13.)SuperSHOCK Gel Eyeliner Pencil in steel, playful and bronze: I love these eye liners, they are definitely like they are described. Well pigmented and so so so so smooth. If I had to say something bad I would say they do set rather quickly but then when they do set they last all day. I would repurchase.

14.)Big Color Glossy Lip Penci in sand, rose and celestial: These is a pretty cool concept, that one would have a lip gloss in a pencil form. But then when you think about it why would you want to sharpen a gloss? they also take up about the same space but then you have to think about having to carry a sharpener with you also. NO. Plus, I just hope you don't ever leave them in a hot place like God forbid your car because you could find a mess when you get back (but that happens with lipstick not gloss) They go on just like a gloss but I would not repurchase.

15.) Moisture Effective Eye Makeup Remover Lotion: I do like this cream eye makeup remover I have used one bottle already and I have given one away to one of my friends. I like it but I would only repurchase it when it on sale at 99 cents. :P

But Thank You so much for reading and if you have any more questions. Leave a comment and I will get back to you as soon as I can.

Thanks again, 

Xiomara 

Avon Nailwear Pro Swatches

Ok these are my fist nail color swatches I have done just like the other eyeshadow swatches were my first. I just tried my best to make them look the best I could with the small nails I have right now. So sorry I don't have longer nails...lol. These nail colors were applied with one base coat of beauty secrets ridge filler three coats of nail color and one layer of the Avon nail expert uv gloss gaurd top coat. So that is a total of five coats. I have to say two more things I didn't say in my video. For whatever reason nailwear pro nail colors are VERY runny nail colors. If you have not purchased them before you should know that before buying them because if you do buy them that might make them a lot harder to work with. At least for me it is I AM NOT A NAIL TECH! as you can see from the swaches...lol. Another thing I wanted to say about the color urban grey. Something I noticed while doing my left hand is that that color seems to have a slight shimmer to it, which really isn't noticible untill you really look at them from close up. The Vintage blue is straight up a light baby matte blue color.

One coat of filler base, three of nail color and one of top coat

Urban Grey

Vintage Blue