08-10-2012- Haul Palattes Swatches

***All swatches are WITHOUT primer***

Inspiration...

It came with plain nobs but since I had to go to home depot anyways while I was there I bought new pretty ones :)

My new organized closet!!

Yep, I built that all on my own!

OMG... I found a new love...I know, I know, I love a lot of things and sometimes it's hard to keep up. So let me catch you up. I have two closets in my master bed room. I use only one really and I was SO messy. But let me tell you why. Ok so before I bought my house I lived  in two different apartments plus my mom's apt. Anyways my mom, bless her heart is a pack rat.  It's cool I understand that there are a lot of people in the world that would like to have furniture but I just don't want to have a used broken drawer in my house even if it was free. Ok that may sound harsh but consider that at the apartment she would collect like five or six of them. She would collect A LOT! So I made a rule at my house when we moved in. I don't want to live like a hoarder so keep that collecting of old things to what you can fit in your room. That being said when I got to my house there was a lack of storage space. Well not really storage space but more specifically chest of drawers for clothes. My closet was CRAZY looking. So I had purchased this chest of drawer at Ikea a while back but I still had to build it. This last weekend I was off so I decided to make a go of it and build it myself. Thankfully I did well everything looks great! Thank God that even though not all pieces came in the box ( I was missing the proper screws) I went to home depot and bought the right ones. It got done. Now my closet is so organized which inspired my to do all my room. I have already came up with the design and I will be doing that soon. I will post a picture when it's done. But that big point of this whole blog is to say that wow I really never thought I could enjoy myself so much organizing and building something. I was awesome. Even though I did at one point hit my thumb with the hammer... it was still worth it because it's so organized now. YAY!

Book Review: Why men want sex and women need love

*****  5 of  5

 

OMG... this book is awesome! Ok so I guess I should prefase this by saying that I saw this documentary on Netflix a while ago called the science of sex appeal... this book totally reminds me of that documentary. The only different is that this book not only goes in to much much detail it gave me a lot to thinks about. Communication mostly, and how important it really is. This book explains in detail how the sexes are different in how they think and not only that the REASON they think differently. I mean I knew that men and women thought differently but now I now WHY. This book tells you all the medical termanology without being too boring. It's funny with the quotes that it give as well. And at the end it gave me something to think about... here goes... It states that because when people are in love they have all types of chemicals going on in the brain. Ok so they brought up that because now we know what goes on in the brain during the process of falling in love with someone that what if in the near future we might be able to actually decide that we don't want to fall in love!!!? that maybe soon we could have a pill that could prevent all those chemicals that cause love not to happen or not to become active!!??? They go on to say- What if a person wants to concentrate on their career? Or what if a person doesn't want to have kids? What if someone wants to live by theyselves?  When I heard that I was so taken a back from that...it imediatly cause my brain to go into overdrive with those statements...seriosly I was like WOW!  I wonder if they could make a pill to trick my mind into thinking it was 28 again...lol. I can just imagine how cold the world would be...and yet so productive at the same time...probably less kids...my mind is just going and going. Very interesting book!

Book review: 50 Shades of Grey

Two Stars **

 

The only reason I picked up this book is because my friends and I were thinking of starting a book club and one of my friends recommended it to me. So I waited to get my credit from Audible and bought the book. I must say this book opens your eyes to the smut that kinky people like. Ok let me sum up this book short but sweet. Have you ever seen the movie 9 and half weeks? Well the plot line is very similar if not identical. Boy meet girl, girl likes boy and extra curicular activities (a lot) and , girl finds out that boy is (very) kinky, thus girl leaves boy because he emotionally can not give her what she wants and she is not willing to give him what he needs...lol. That's it right there. I just saved you 19 hours of your life you would have needed to listen this book. BUT if you like smut you should definatly read this book. Maybe this book could teach you a new move or two you could try on your partner...I guess that's worth my 15 dollars (1 credit), right? ...lol.

YOLO Bucket list

1. Read the bible cover to cover
   
2. Go ice skating
   
3. learn french
   
4. go do indoor rock climbing
   
5. Learn to surf or windsurf
   
6. Get a tattoo
   
7. Go to an nfl football game
   
8. Get a concealed hand gun license and gun
   
9. Take a self defense class 
10. Finish my business degree
    
11. go horseback riding
    
12. go fishing
13. Learn to play poker
14. volunteer on a missionary trip
    
15. Go zip lining
    
16. Ride in a hot air balloon
17. learn to tango
18. ballroom dance
19. go on a cruise
20. fire walk
21. ride a mechanical bull
22. go cart race
23. lose thirty pounds
24. learn to play golf
25. go skiing and or snowboarding
    
26. Visit Australia, scuba dive in the great barrier reef, see the opera house
    
27. Visit the the pyramids in Egypt
28. Visit the holy land
29. write and publish a book about my life
30. Ride in a helicopter
31. Go skydiving (I changed my mind and I will be going with my sister Mello this summer)
32. Visit Paris too many things to list
    
33. Visit Spain and participate in the running of the bulls and La tomatilla
    
34. Visit Venice and ride in a gondola
    
35. Live in Europe for one year
36. live in NYC for one year
37. live in Chicago for one year
38. visit the great wall of China
39. visit the Taj mahal in India
    
40. visit Petra in Jordan
41. visit all seven continents
42. Visit Amsterdam and the see the red light district, and of course smoke
    
43. Visit Germany and go to Oktoberfest and drive sober on the German autobahn
    
44. Go to Brussels, Belgium and go to the delirium cafe
    
45. Go to the grand canyon and white water raft
    
46. visit Manchu Picchu in Peru
47. Go to rio de ganeiro, see the Christ redeemer statue
48. Go to Fiji
49. Start a business
50. Fall in Love again and become a wife and mother
    

Life is short and fleeting...You should start a bucket list before you get to the end of your life and regret not doing all the things God put in your heart to do. Some of this shit seems trivial but really it's stuff that might make you feel more alive. Try something new it feels good to get away from the usual. I'm don't think I'm going to go in all this stuff in order but if God lets me I will have enough life left to do most of it. Take a look at my list, if you see anything on mine in common with yours (within reason), let me know- maybe we could cross some of it off together. Can't wait to get started!!!

The gift of goodbye ( an except from Every Day A Friday by Joel Osteen)

"A crutch is a temporary tool we use for walking after an injury to a leg or a foot. Once the injury has healed we put the crutch away and walk on our own. The word crutch is also used to describe something or someone we may rely on short term to help us get through a period of challenge. The term takes on a bad connotation though, when used to describe something we've become unnecessarily dependant on usually to the detriment of our physical or emotional progress. A crutch is supposed to be temporary, just until we heal, or until we can get by on our own. It's not supposed to be permanent. Even when a crutch is someone important to us. One of the hardest things to accept is that not everyone is meant to be in our lives forever. Some people are meant to be with our for the long term,of course, your spouse, your children, your sibling, your parents. But then there are those God brings across your path for a season. maybe a mentor, a teacher and guide of some sort to help your through a certain stage of life or a difficult time. If God didn't move the away we would become too dependant, instead of helping us they would hinder us. Their presence might limit our growth. You have to be big enough to recognize when some one's part in your life's story is over. It doesn't mean the person is bad, you can still be friends. You can still love and respect each other but you must accept that everything changes. To move forward You have to let go. Just as God super naturally brings people into our lives He will supernaturally move people out. When a person walks away and you think you can't live without them, that's God saying its time for you to go to a new level. You don't need someone to constantly think for you, drive for you, believe in you and encourage you, you can do that for yourself. If you are to keep growing eliminate dependencies on crutches. Don't try to talk people into loving you. Don't try to persuade them to stay beyond their usefulness , let them go. Your destiny in not tied to your mentors. His or her leaving will launch you ahead it's not a step back, it's a step up. When someone walks away it's not an accident, God will open up new doors you will discover greater strength and new talents. God maybe preparing to bring in even someone better for the future. When my mentor from television broadcast left I had a choice I could either mope around in self pity or move toward my destiny. I came to realize there is something called the gift of goodbye. You may not realize if at first but losing your crutch is a gift from God. I saw this principle in action during my fathers ministry. Whenever someone announced he or she was leaving the congregation they expected my father to be down and discouraged that they were leaving, so that person was often shocked when he seemed happy at their departure. He never tried to talked them into staying or to convince them they were making a mistake. My father was always very gracious. He always thanked them, prayed over them and then he walked them to the door. He didn't say it but I know what he was thinking, the sooner you go the better for both of us. You want people in your life who are supposed to be there. When God wants them present in your life they don't find fault in everything you do. You don't have to manipulate them to stay. That's what I love about members of Lakewood there's so many I can't know most of them by name. I can't call them personally but I know they don't come to church because they need me, they come because God lead them to our church. They don't need me to touch them, they need God to touch them. When God sends people your way you don't have to play up to them and do everything perfectly to keep them happy. You don't have to walk on eggshells trying not to offend them. You don't need friends who are hard to please. If someone tries to manipulate you like that let it go and walk away. You don't need anyone else to fulfill your destiny. I love this scripture, they went our from us because they we not of us, for if they had been of us they would of continued with us. When people leave your life they are no longer a part of your destiny. Their time is over. If you stay open God will give you people who are not just with you but for you. There is a big difference. When your only with me you're there as long as I perform perfectly, as long as I give you everything you need, as long as I don't make mistakes. But when your not just with me, but your for me you believe the best in me you don't try to control me, you give me room to make mistakes, you don't need my attention all the time, you give more to the relationship than you take away. That's the kind of people God wants to bring in to your life. You don't have try to make this happen. Just be your best each day and God will bring you Divine connections. And then when they season for that relationship is over, you don't have to be upset. You can let the other person leave with your blessing continuing to love and respect him or her. I've learned this God will always bring the right people into your life but you have to let the wrong people walk away. The right people will never show up if you don't clear out the wrong people."



Can't sleep...thought I would share this priceless advice!!!

Eight Years and counting...

Today marks a eight years since I was shot. It feels like it didn't even happen to me -almost like it was a lifetime ago. Although I know it did because I have plenty of scars to remind me it did. You know what the only few things I remember about actually being in the hospital are? I remember when I woke up my mom was on the right side of my hospital bed and I started to cry because I couldn't speak. I had tubes coming out of my mouth and a hole in my neck. One of the things that stands by me is that my mom didn't cry( not even once) while I was in there. Maybe she did in private but  not in front of me- and if so I have no knowledge of it. Do you know I have only seen my mom cry about two or three times in my life? I made her cry once by being insensitive and once she cried because of a friend. I can't remember the other time but it wasn't when I got shot. I think if I would have seen her cry I would have understood that magnitude of what happened to me that night eight years ago. Since she is so strong I hope that rubbed off a little on me. I know I always say this but it's true, I'm glad it happened to me. If it would have happen to someone else maybe they would that let that define who they were. Maybe they would be bitter about it. Not me. Because of this I'm aware of how fragile our lives really are. One day you could be doing some mundane thing, something you've done a hundred times before and next could be riding in an ambulance. Crazy. You know I ask God right after it happened? I used to ask him why did it happened to me. He never answered me. But what I can say that if it didn't happen I don't I would be where I am today. Because of this my job found out that I was good at my job so when I came back I got a promotion soon after. What I ask God now is that everyday since I have been able to make him proud of the person I have become- even though I'm not perfect, that saving me that night was worth His work in me. That even though I might not know why He left me on this earth that He one day helps me find out what it is. But most of all  that I do what He left me here to do and all the while I'll be rejoicing in His name.