June 27 th 2007 and today

To most people they are not going to find any significance in that mundane Wednesday at all. But as for me that day was one of the most meaningful days  in my life. That was the day I stood up and gave my life for the Lord. Looking back I knew I have always been close to God for the simple fact that I should have died many times over if it were not for the fact that God wants me to do something on his behalf. That day I was at church with  my heart wide open thinking how could I ever get over this biggest heart break I had ever had. I would go to church Wednesdays and Sundays because that was the only place my heart did not hurt. Lakewood was the only place I felt safe and in the presence of the Lord. As if through all the people that preached I could hear His voice telling me that everything was going to be ok. And it was ok, The only regret I have about that day was that it didn't happen sooner. It should have happened years before after I got shot in the chest and survived. It could have happened when my doctor told me I had a tumor the size of a basketball he thought was cancer at the time. But no I was still stubborn to stand up for Him and declare my life was His to mold as He wished. But today is a different day, today is a better day then those dark days. Today I feel closer to Him. There isn't anything I can't tell Him and there isn't anything too small I can't bring to Him. Today I'm stronger and happier because He made me whole again. I know that whatever happens I will be ok. He has me in the palm of his hands. And I'm grateful for everything I have because all I have is because of God.


Xiomara

Book Review: What Every Body is Saying by Joe Navarro

My Book Rating: *****5 out of 5

Let me start of with saying that I don't even really know how I even came across this book on audible.com but I'm so glad that I did. This book in one word I AWESOME! Joe Navarro is an x FBI special agent and teacher with a career with them spading a quarter of a century. He has spend his whole career catching all kind of criminals by using his skill to decipher non verbal communication. I really think that anyone could benefit from reading this book. First of all I don't think I have ever read a book quite like this one. By "reading" this book I learned about the human brain and how the limbic system of the brain is the most honest part of the brain. He talks about some of the cases he helped solve in the FBI. I also learned about laws and the case Terri Vs Ohio which gave the right to a cop to be able to search you when he thinks there is an intent to commit a crime. I can say that before I read this book I thought that I was pretty good at reading body language just on the count of working with different people on a daily basis. But I was wrong. I learned a lot and while reading it I was never bored! I even gave had my coworker and my brother read some of it and they also thought it was great. My brother wants the hard copy so he can highlight in it. This book seriously (don't laugh) made me go want to people watch in the middle of a crowded mall with some dark glasses...LOL so I can see more examples of what he mentions in the book. This is a great book and it somehow leaves me wanting more knowledge about the subject, only the sign of a great book, don't you think?


Xiomara

A weight has been lifted

So I'm not sure if you guys know that I have an issue with forgiveness. I'm sure I have mentioned in passed blogs. Well this week I think I was sent a new challenge from God, at least that's what I'm taking it as. So a person from my passed asked to come back in. It was the person that I once thought was the love of my life. Of course he wasn't- as you might know I have made mistakes. As time has gone by I have come to let go of all the bitterness I held deep in my heart for the pain I though he cause in my life. I realized that I was as much to blame, maybe even more because I didn't go about it the way God would have wanted me to and for making him promise things he could not keep. I also realized that if I don't ever forgive him I will just keep failing the test that God sends me which will cause me to never get to the next chapter of my life. Whatever God holds for me. At first I wondered if it was a good idea but today as I sat in church Pastor Joel talked about the next step in your life.He said if you let things from your past go uncorrected (like unforgiveness) hold you back you might not enjoy to the fullest of what He has for you. So in a way I wasn't really doing it for him I was really doing it for me and the life that only God knows I want and hopefully has planned for me in the future. I almost feel like a weight has been lifted off me, because I know God is always in control not matter how bad I sometimes think things are. So I'm glad and hopeful to see what come next...

Xiomara